Things have been getting a little better for me. I know that I can't just give up on things that easily. Things are improving everyday.
Luckily things with him aren't that bad. Of course nothing ever happened, we remain friends..but i think i'm okay with that again. He still kills me with things he says sometimes, but in a good way. I'm so glad things didn't become awkward after I told him. That would surly have murdered me. We haven't talked as much because we don't have a class together anymore and I hardly see him at work, but I think that could be a good thing for me. I'm not going to completely forget about him, but it'll make it easier for me to move along. Sometimes I question liking him now anyway. Sometimes I get the feeling that maybe I wasn't so crazy about him after all. Maybe I was just crazy about the idea of having someone LIKE him. Whether that's the case or not, i'll let myself believe that. It would do me some good.
School is doing a little better I think. I finished my first class with an A, but I really didn't expect anything lower for that specific class. I'm doing as much extra credit in my Healthy Life Skills class as possible so I can bring my grade up. Not to mention with what we're studying right now, i'm sure to pass the next exam. I mean come on. Sex, Drugs and Alcohol...who wouldn't be interested in that. I actually studied for my mass communications exam and walked out with an A! My professor seemed slightly surprised, but I was glad to have shocked him. And then there's my biggest concern...government. Just took an exam on Monday...and I feel really confident! I studied enough and I knew most everything on there. Then we have extra credit opportunities that I'm happy to do. I think I'll make it through the end of my first semester okay.
Work hasn't gotten any better, but whatever. I'm not going to let that bog me down. I'll probably start looking for a new job here pretty soon. Of course out of the food business. I just don't think I can do that again. And after all that, my social life has managed to stay alive. Not as insane as it used to be, but still there. I think I may have found the perfect balance.
My 19th birthday is tomorrow. I think it'll be a good day. Another year has passed me by...who would have thought i'd make it this far.
